Perfect?... NEVER...

Basically i'm depressed, the finals are here and we just finished our maths paper on the 25th.
I have recieved a comment that i'm paranoid, maybe i am but its for a good sense.

Now i have to teach a few people about social psychology. Based on what i have learned and the results i've gotten for midterm, i really don't have the confidence to teach them... really, if i'm really that good i should have gotten full marks!!

AND , pardon my language, the blabber mouths !! the ones who ruined the movie review... got higher marks than me in the assignment!! STUPID!! REALLY i feel like revenge!!How can they got higher marks than me! WHY!! When i asked for justice, our lecturer told me that their group, ask a lot, corrected a lot, draft a lot, printed nice drafts and ALL that crap!!

WHY?!!! its so unfair.. according to some's opinion our lecturer has a bit of a crush to students who make noise during class... Yay!! Hypothesis:blabbler mouths leaves a bigger impression on lecturers than nerds who really understands the theory and what the heck, blabber mouths got higher marks than the nerd!!

Oh dear, i just perceived myelf like a nerd... bloody!!either way i just hate that those people got higher marks than me. Now i'm under pressure of helping people instead... *sigh*

Self fulfilling Prophecy

I hate those guys in my class who can't seem to keep their mouths shut for even 1 minute. One minute of total silence is all i ask for and they can't seem to do that !

Today was a movie review day for social psychology. We were supposed to watch the movie beforehand and then write out our feelings and what theories have we learned from the movie. Today's movie was " The Mist" a horror film, though it was a little scary, was really meaningful and touching when someone actually, really appreciates it...

The most crucial moment was ruined by the stupid gang of babblers! The were shouting and hooting like a bunch of crazy chimps. I HATE THEM, it was chaos in the class and since our lecturer was half death, it was chaotic and the whole mood of the movie was ruined!

Those guys can't stop talking since the beginning of the semester. Lectures, tutorials you name it they are like crows except that they are 10 times noisier than the actual birds! When asked to answer what principle was applicable in the movie they will start shouting,"Self fulfilling prophecy" like crazy. Self fulfilling prophecy MY FOOT!!

If they were the real followers of the prophecy they would know that since there is people expecting them to be quiet, they should SHUT the FUCK UP!! and not talking like all hell broke loose!!

I'm writting this just to express my feelings please don't be offended by my language. If I had lost my temper i would have... well, i don't know what i'll do..

Type A or Type B?

The other day when we were having our social paychology tutorial class, we had come across an interesting topic, aggression.

Our tutor mentioned that there were 2 types of people in this world in the psychology context, type A and type B. At this point, please look deep down and see if u are that type of person whose more prone to aggression.

Type A: impatient,excessively time conscious, insecure, highly competitive, workaholic, drive themselves of deadline, unhappy about the smallest delay.
Type B: patient, relaxed, secure, easy going.

Well, for those who know me well, it is obvious that i am type A, pure type A. As my tutor mentioned those characteristics one by one, i grew uneasy and gradually depressed. It sounds so bad like I possed all those negative vibes and theres nothing i can do about it. Then one of my classmates said, " Miss, won't those who are type A lonely?" my tutor kinda missed that part but she did hear this," Miss, but those who are type A are resposible and confident." i was glad that that classmate said so , i am glad that someone said that type A still have their positive side.

I was starting to hate myself. I have an arrogance and desire of being superior than everybody else or so said my mom who said that she had the same characteristics, and according to her she still has them but supressed. I tried to change, in exchange for friends.

Change, according to almost everbody, was for the better but for me its a burden and i'm tired about it. When my brother was borned, i changed to become a big sister. When i was left out by friends during primary, I changed to fit in. Secondary school, I changed to gain achievement and now in university i have to change again, to fit in again, to achieve again and for many more things to come...

I am tired of changing, for better, for worse...