Dark Days...

I'm trying to toughen myself up to prevent the pain from seeping in... the lost of a pet could really bring you down. To all pet owners who had lost their pets in the past, my belated condolescence...

Two days prior my 20th birthday, my friends Eddy & Sam brought over the most wonderful and surprising gift, two adorable hamsters as my early birthday gift... The two instantly became the attention of my housemates of the same floor and my most prized possession. The two were named Barnie and Minnie as they told me that they were a pair.

On the before my birthday, Barnie caught a strange disease that made his eye bulge out...it was terrifying to watch so I got my friend who was going to Ipoh the next day to bring him to the vet... by the time they got back it was too late... Barnie's eye was blind and his other eye was sealed shut...It was painful to see him suffer and around 3am the next morning he passed...

"Minnie" who turns out to be a "Mickey" instead was my only companion now that Barnie has gone to heaven. I spent big bucks trying to keep his cage clean and sanitised, buying him toys like the hamster ball and the sanitiser from the pet shop...he was happy and healthy until yesterday where he started to sleep for the whole day and got all sloppy in his movements...

At first, I thought he was hibernating but it turned out to be more than that... In the afternoon, he passed on to join Barnie... I am now in pain .... gut wrenching pain just took over me when I saw him lying there motionless as if he was sleeping but not reacting when i called his name...

I cried... but no amount of crying could numb me from the pain... it's so sad to lose a pet.I'm crying as I'm writing this... I hope I'll get over this soon...